Poor Lyl. Yet more heartache. She tried everything she could think of, risked her life, loved him unconditionally, but still, no matter how much she wanted it to be different than it was, her efforts were fruitless. This is probably my least favorite part of life. Trying to the utmost and it mattering nothing at all. It is a deeper sense of loss, of being robbed, of being worthless, than anything else I know.
And especially when everything you are doing is 100% for the right reason, and to help a child, an innocent. You know you might not be worth saving because you can list your own vices and faults. You can reason out logically why your life is a waste, if you focus on all the bad about you, but in life, you meet some, usually children, who are pure and innocent. You cannot fathom them ever doing wrong, nor that they have ever. You cannot reason out why they must suffer, when all the goodness in the world seems to dwell in their precious hearts.
It is so cruel, and it stays with you for life, when you know someone completely without fault who suffers, and you cannot help them, even though you try; even though you love them.
It just doesn't change anything.
I'll never forget... Max.
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The best way out of a depression is to take action in attempt to resolve another's crisis.
This chapter is all about the straightforward action of trying to save someone by getting them as quickly as you can to help; so it is filled with descriptions of some of which that is passed in the rush to get to Andari.
Lyl is now finally meeting the family she inherited by becoming the daughter of Ties. (Who also don't know she's adopted).
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Betrayal after being betrayed, and yet again, by those she trusts most.
Life can be incredibly unfair and harsh, and when it becomes so, one can become delirious from the pain. Overcome, wishing she could die, Lyl finds one single thing to hold onto, and it becomes her purpose; a reason to continue breathing, to the point of obsession. A boy she doesn't even know the name of.
This book is def dark in places, but what character growth is there truly worth noting that was not the cause of someone overcoming the worst life has to offer? What hero from history, or even mythology, never had to strive for the admiration we show them?
And why not? Life can be cruel and wonderful. We are inspired by those who find good in the darkness, even if it is the smallest possible glimmer, and who build that into a light that shines through into other people's lives.
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