Lyl is going through something miserable, and she doesn't even feel the right to complain about her own discomfort due to guilt. She has realized this might kill her. She has come to terms with the agony of it all, remaining thoughtless, not only from weariness, but also, from the haunting knowledge that she deserves it...
And the torture all ends at the worst place in the world.
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Lyl is struggling with physical strain, with mental torture, and emotional distraught. A sense of duty alone keeps panic at bay, and forces her on, though she'd rather stop.
She would rather stop and never leave. She'd rather stop before the barge, before the home of her friend, and she keeps going on, knowing that she will be miserable the further she goes.
Some things are absolutely unpleasant, but must be done. Some things will weary you to your bones, to your soul, and exhaust your very mind of thought, yet you soldier on, and though your plod slows, you never cease until you finish what you must.
Lyl is driven now, where before she would not listen, now she has seen the error of her procrastination. Guilt is a harsh taskmaster.
Lyl has learned what many teenagers do not learn until they are adults; that listening might have saved them much grief and hardship. But then, Lyl has always been young and foolhardy... (just like I was at her age).
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Lyl has reconciled with her only sibling, and finally can settle into the everyday routine at the mountain, content with the peaceful way they live. She is ready to remain, watching over her new family, but she finally comprehends the danger her friend is causing with his madness. Her heart breaks for her friend, and for having to leave her family, but she finally is starting to do things for unselfish reasons, and must do what needs doing.
Lyl is growing up.
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Family. We might fight with them sometimes, and we often disagree, but nothing makes a person feel at home quite like it, and Lyl needed a home.
No battle in one's own heart. Peace. Contentment.
Lyl is realizing this is a place capable of it, and that all her confusion is because she hasn't had enough experience with kindness, with family, with acceptance and love, to know what to do. But though it is foreign to her to be around these tender, happy people, she yearns to be apart of it somehow.
She is torn between having a real excuse she could use to run away, and desperation to belong with this family.
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Lyl has come to terms with the difference between unpleasant laws that are a mere means of control, and ones that are truly necessary for society to remain peaceable. Some things, are gruesome, but needed, to maintain a people. Some things are even terrible, but without them, there would be only suffering, and no one would be kind to anyone.
There are most certainly laws that are terrible, that seem to have no foundation, and laws, like everything, have two sides to their two sides, but even someone small can decide a law shouldn't be, and petition to find a way to instill change. If that law is genuinely harmful without purpose or provision, then others would see reason, and perhaps even join the disbanding of it.
You do not have to be a world leader or a politician to create change in a country or the earth. You just have to be utterly resolved.
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Sorry in advance for the lack of posts/uploads, but I have to go somewhere for a few weeks. I will come back soon.
When you have been through some trials in life, and start letting them overwhelm you, it ages your face, drawing lines on your skin, engraving each worry that it remains embedded in you. People can see what kind of life you have had, just looking at you, and respond in a first impression to the residuals of hardship they see as much as anything you say.
Your tone resonates in them, and some feel compassion, some look down, judging you for not being stronger, but a rare few have enough insight to understand, and these few are precious.
Lyl has finally met such a person, who embraces her without ever touching her, with his honesty. This person gives her hope, and helps her to remember what good is in her life, shifting her focus from all that is bad to that which is good, without him ever telling her that she has to or she will rot inside. There are no warnings about her future, only assurance that it is possible to have a future different than the past.
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